morning, i woke up and read the following text message "if there is anything worse than chlamydia, it's florida"
what a greeting what a way to start a day and that in florida! i lost all energy to come out of bed.
then i went to work, put my hand on the door knob and for a second realized i have been doing the same thing every morning for the past 6 years and like sinking lead i felt my whole being falling to the ground. but i picked myself up and stepped in, greeted my fellow chemists and moved to my desk. i started staring at the monitor decided to make coffee and have breakfast since i did not have time to eat it at home. i had made some oats flax seeds and soymilk which had turned into a weird mix upon cooling.
it took me three hours to finish it; a breakfast not broken so fast.
anyway, then after lunch, brunch, breakfast, we gathered and said goodbye to a colleague leaving the lab after a whole lot of years....
goodbyes.
goodbyes are irreversible.
i am still at work. reducing data. writing blogs. listening to music. crying. occasionaly realizing the fall and picking myself up up and up to fall again.
and fall and fall. each time the well growing deeper and more mysterious.
goodbyes are irreversible.